You'll always be my thunder.

Ack! Yes...that is my new favorite word deal with it. Anywayyy life as of now. Simple. I am what I am and refuse to change for anyone. Tried that whole changing thing once...to fit someones moods didn't exactly work out in my favor. Still friends though but will never have the relationship we once had. It's about time I realized that....it's taken me long enough hah. Uhm other then that life is life...it has it's up moments and it's down moments strangely enough the down moments always seem to be the ones that I get stuck with lately.
This week has been the best week I've had in quite a while now and funny thing is it's because of me...which is odd because I'm not used to making myself happy. I usually let that fall into the hands of someone else whether it be a friend or a guy. This time it's all me it gives me a sense of independence that I seem to have lost in the last few years. Don't think I've felt this calm since the summer of Brad... ack. I've always had a storm raging inside me but within this last year I find myself calm and maybe even a bit more mature then I once was. (Hey I said maybe!) Haha. It's hard to imagine I'll be 21 next month...Wow 21 years and I have yet to reach my full potential well all that's about to change... Scary huh? I know! Trust me no one is as scared as I am. Hah. Anyway this makes no sense to anyone but me I'm sure. This is the most personal blog I've written in awhile...will probably be the only one I write for awhile cause I'm sure I'll forget bout this site... if Brandi lets me anyway. Later Days!
*Shan*